Sometimes it is better to celebrate your success alone, instead of                                     sharing it and being sad and disappointed.

I will share with you one of my experiences that happened recently.
Based on the story I’m going to tell you, I realized that all the things we do, we do for ourselves, because it makes us happy and no one else. Even though I knew that, it wasn’t quite like that.
There was someone else…
When you discover that, you realize that,that chain needs to be broken, because you are still bound.
Thanks to everything, I broke another chain of the past.

It all started with the launch of this page, in the desire to help people with my personal experiences. Everything I write has been experienced by someone, so everything is true.
After starting this page, I had an increasing desire to write, to create. Ideas come by themselves every day.
So I decided to put them on paper.
I wrote a book of children’s songs in my native language, my four-year-old son was the inspiration.
That’s how it all started.
I was unsure of myself.
I was thinking whether to send it or not?
Everything inside me was screaming to send it, I was getting various signs that it should be sent.
I gathered courage, found a publishing house in my country and decided to send it. However, there were two email addresses on the page, I sent to both just in case.
I waited for an answer for two weeks, I checked the post every day, I was excited and calm at the same time.
One evening it was really late, I decided to check again, my thoughts were telling me that it was late at night on the weekend and that the answer would certainly not arrive now. My inner voice was stronger, I listened to it again and checked.
Next was my scream.
My husband jumped up scared, he didn’t know what was happening and I couldn’t say anything, I just handed him the phone.
I didn’t even read the whole email.
Just the first sentence.
“Your manuscript has been accepted.”
When I calmed down, I received congratulations from my husband, he was so proud of me.
He told me to read the whole email.
I calmly read it, it turned out that my manuscript was one of those accepted and selected for the competition for the best book of poetry in 2023.
OMG
I didn’t even know that one of the email addresses was for a competition.
Can you imagine all that?
Can you imagine someone opening the door for you and you not seeing it?
How coincidences and inner voice lead us towards something more and better than you can imagine.

I celebrated with my husband, but I wanted to share it with someone else. With my family, friends, sister, brother.
My inner voice told me to keep it to myself. My success is mine.
I read the email for a couple of days to convince myself that it is true that I am not dreaming.
Still, I felt so lonely, I imagined how happy and proud my family would be for me.
This time I didn’t listen to my inner voice and told them.
I made a mistake there.
I decided to share the good news with my parents.
All excited, I talked about how everything happened, how everything worked out. I expected the same excitement from them as well. I got nothing. You just surprised us, we didn’t expect that you would start writing.
My father left because I interrupted him in the movie, my mother was laughing. My brother didn’t even call me to ask or congratulate me.
My sadness and disappointment at that moment was immense.
I spent that night crying and thinking.
I cried until the tears dried up.
Happiness and pride were shown by my husband, my sister and her husband.

I realized then that a part of me was still doing things for them, “My parents”.
Just for a couple of their words, which I’ve been waiting for all this time
“We are proud of you”
I realized that no matter what I do, they will never say that.
I looked in the mirror and said to myself: “I’m proud of you, go ahead”
So I entered the new day freed from another chain, determined to keep my successes to myself.
Me and my inner self.
Everything else will fall into place over time.
Dreams can become reality…